reverb10: beautifully different

Prompt: Beautifully different. Think about what makes you different and what you do that lights people up. Reflect on all the things that make you different - you'll find they're what make you beautiful. Author: Karen Walrond, The Beauty of Different
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hmmmm....i'll bet i'm not the only one who had more than a moment of pause upon reading this prompt! this sounds a bit like bragging at first glance, doesn't it? and lord knows i'm not all into that, but on second look it feels more like loving myself. and i'm getting pretty good at that!

so let's see...what makes me different? the first thing that comes to mind is the wide-eyed looks when i let the guys at the hardware store (or insert whatever boy-hangout here) treat me like i have not a brain and then watch their mouths fall open when i smile and speak, intelligently, to the problem at hand. my running joke was always, "i pay good money for this blonde!" :~)

but seriously, my idea of a good time is wide and varied, but i do enjoy my own company quite a bit and can be euphorically happy for hours with a good glass of wine, some great music or a movie i know by heart, and some art supplies. the older something is the better i like it...i.e. furniture, accessories, tidbits other people would throw away are treasures to me! and i've been that way since i was a child. luckily though, i love to organize! so those tiny treasures are usually easily found. i'm a good writer, and as it turns out, a good teacher when it comes to something i'm passionate about! my first love is pottery, but mixed media is quickly gaining! i'm a good listener. i've found that is really what most people want...is to be heard. not to be fixed. just heard. i know that's what i want. i pray. a lot. and i'm not scared to ask for someone to pray for me. right then and there. and i do it regularly. just ask my mom! :~)

i'm not a good player...meaning like playing babies or barbies or such with kennedy. but i try. and she thinks i'm great! so i guess that's all that matters, really. she definitely lights up when i play anything with her! as for others, i feel as though my true friends are my true friends because they know who i am...often silly, dorky, eccentric ,sometimes melancholy, big hearted, soft-hearted, open-hearted, nerdy, still a work in progress, a crazy idea maker, a joke maker, a red-wine lover, a cat person, a hard-core sleeper, a comfy-clothes and 4inch heel lover, a flea-market whore, an art-maker, and a sentimental freakie-leakie (as i say), and they love me anyway. not sure if any of that lights them up, but they keep hangin' around and comin' back for more, so maybe i'm ok after all.

i'm at peace with who i am and who i'm becoming, and really that's all that matters in the end, anyway, right?